timing.

exhausted. me, I am exhausted.

I had starbucks this afternoon... like the other millions of Americans out there. But, it wasn't the drink I enjoyed so much but the random guy that started talking to me. He was old and friendly and normally I would just giggle and sort of walk away... because I would have thought talking to a man in starbucks I don't know is weird. But, he was so nice. He started talking about the weather. It's funny how the weather can bring about conversations. But, I can almost say it was the best part of my day. I was tired and thinking about how sometimes I can be so passionate about God and at other times feel sustained but not so alive. And this man was a blessing. He really was. I just stood there thinking that God must have sent him. I mean, he didn't say anything spectacular. He told me that he was saved in a Baptist youth group in Colorado when he was young. He also said that he didn't ski but ice fished. Well, somehow I said that God gives us power. It fit in our conversation somewhere... and He encouraged me to remember that. He told me that I was vulnerable right now because I just came from camp (which scared me a little) and to stay strong. I guess it was what I needed. I can't explain more than that. But, it was what I was searching for I assume and God just handed it to me. I will guiltily admit that I was bummed that I hadn't heard God as much as I wanted to at camp... but I was there for girls and God used me. It's hard to see sometimes I think- when God uses you. But, I am so thankful for camp and that I was able to speak truth to girls who need it. And God gave me what I needed when I got home.

Well, I've fallen behind on the bible in a year plan. I'm catching up though... not to worry. I'm sure you were worried :) But, it just occurred to me how the devil is oh so sly. Stupid devil. I hate you. I was reading Malachi about how God will always out-give us. I picture God just standing there with his hands on his hips with an enormous smile saying, "Test me in this and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room for it." And then He laughs... because it must be a fun game for Him. Like... helllllo.... haha.... you can't give me as much as I give you. Want to play again?!" And this is why I love God so much.

But, back to why the devil is so stupid. While I'm reading this and thoroughly enjoying this role play in my head... mr. ex-boyfriend #1 decides to call me... and he's not sober... and casually mentioned something I just didn't want to hear. I just thought... it's from the devil. I know what you're thinking... how is that from the devil? Hearing something you don't want to hear? Well, let me just tell you... that my precious and fun God time was interrupted with this stupid distraction. And can I just say that God didn't like that? But, I have good news... the devil was pretty much just slammed. Wham! I wish there was scripture that said, "God told the devil, 'Umm... I don't think so. Who do you think you are?! Yeah, that's right. You lose again."

Man, I don't know what's happened to me. It must be the lack of sleep.