short term memory

This is a story about my fish. We're a lot alike- my fish and I. I so badly wish we weren't because fish are mostly stupid. Today I put new water in its bowl and faced the extremely hard task of catching her. She did not want to be taken into the nice plastic container that I planned for her to live in while I made her mansion of a glass bowl clean. Like me, she doesn't like when things change and when she has to swim around in something less than she's used to. But, I caught her... after a lot of hard work. (What I really need is one of those net scooper things.) Well, I washed out her bowl... and all the marbles that she loves. She really does like them. I also dropped a marble down the garbage disposal and had to reach my hand down it and get it back. Disgusting; all for the sake of my fishes happiness. Well, after making everything so nice and pretty for her (and for me), I tried to dump as much water as possible from the plastic container down the drain so her new water would be clean when I put her back in. She didn't like that. She freaked out. But, she is so dumb... because I was just trying to make things better for her. And what I'm really trying to say, which I'm failing terribly at doing, is that I'm like her. I freak out sometimes and squirm around when I don't have my ideal situation. But, I shouldn't... because just around the corner is something awesome... like a big clean bowl for a tiny little fish. Well, I know she's happy now. She's swimming around and staring at herself in the glass and I think she probably has already forgotten how she was so uncomfortable earlier today. But anyways, I'm smarter than a fish and I think that's always important to remember. You're smarter than a fish too. And that means that I shouldn't squirm so much when things don't go how I like. And I should remember just how much God is in control. Because, you know, I'm like God to my fish... and I saved her from dying in mucky water and allowed her to see herself in that shiny glass bowl of hers. And in human terms, God has done that for me. He's allowed me to see myself clearly and he has saved my from all that yucky stuff. But, like my fish, I easily forget and squirm... and all the while I'm sure God is thinking, "Lauren, I'm just dumping out your dirty water so you will be happy."