Waiting

I’m learning that being patient is not easy. I want to be in fast forward mode and know what is going to happen… because I know something is going to happen. I just wish I knew what it was. But, instead, I get to wait. I get to do normal things on fairly normal days and just wait. If I knew what was going to happen tomorrow and the next day though, I guess it would make things boring, wouldn’t it? So I wait. I’m thinking that God wants to see what I will do while I wait for this something-that-I-don’t-know-about to happen. A big test you could say. Will I pass or fail? I think I will pass. I know that I will because I’ve made that decision… the decision to not just sit here and do nothing while I wait. But still, waiting is hard. Being patient is hard. It seems like to be patient you have to have this belief that everything will work out in the end… because if you didn’t believe that, you would try to do whatever you’re doing another way. So, patience takes trust. But, it’s always hard to trust and to let it all just go. To let the things that are making you worried and the things that are making you frustrated be swept away by your faith that something bigger is happening. It’s just a tough thing that is just so simple to do; to be patient.