O is for Overwhelming Emotion. Yes.

I will keep my eyes upon the LORD, feel the warmth and rejoice in his light. I lift my head to his touch and give him all of my heart that is beating for His love. For He knows the plan He has for me, and takes joy in the time that I wait. He is above my worldly desires that are burdens pulling at my entirety. A glimpse of His power will hold me captivated. I search for Him and He has all of me.

mornings, journals, and good things

Life is good. Going from spending the majority of my time with one boy to spending a ton of time with girls is a crazy transition. It’s way too easy to forget how fun girls are. But, I do miss the boy time too. Really though, life changes and God is good to me.

This morning I woke up at 6:30. It felt amazing to hear my alarm go off when it was light outside… unlike when it does at the unreasonable time of 4:15. To make it even better, I didn’t have to drive to the boathouse because it’s “stormy” (not quite) and instead I went to SDSU for practice. I took my sweet time getting ready… I actually put on a little makeup seeing as I wasn’t going to be getting sweaty but instead would be watching people work out. Nice. I made some amazing chai tea in my silver Starbucks cup (which, by the way, is broken) and ate a pop tart on the way. I was feeling pretty wonderful bundled up with two layers of clothes until……. I found out that I would be joining in on the workout that had been planned. Ugh. One of the relay teams for the ergs was short one person and I happened to be one of the few with no truly good excuse for not filling in. [Note: an erg is a horrible and miserable rowing machine that makes me want to pass out and die from lack of oxygen.] So, I did it. I made it out of the workout room alive… a bit shaky and lightheaded and detesting pop tarts and tea… but alive.

On a happier note, I’m starting my alphabet journal today. Brilliant! I have all 26 letters and I get to make a fun trip to buy the journal (I’m thinking moleskine- even though I hate the word moleskine). So here’s the deal. The overall theme is going to be “blessings”. So, each entry will have a blessing that starts with the correlated letter. I know it sounds super corny and sort of like something that you would do in elementary school, but I think it will be really awesome. I’ll have my pictures/ drawings/ artwork to go with each page, some sweet scrapbook paper, and some words. I’m not going to go in order and I will make pages randomly when it applies… I don’t want to have to force myself to think of a lame blessing just because I want it finished. Anyways, I am beyond excited! New projects make me happy!

Things that are good:

- Last night was my first night helping with Junior High Group at church and it was great! Sixth grade girls are so silly and at such a fun age. I’m excited!

- I pretty much did awesome on my Spanish quiz.

- I no longer have ugly metal on my teeth making them straight (also known as braces). Yes!

- New shoes and a new white jacket (much needed)

- Friends that are new too. And much needed.

- Umm. The Office. (A bit sad that a TV show has made it to my good list.)

- Quiet time before practices on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Time with God and no interruptions is the best. Seriously… another easy thing to forget.

- My required mentor for athletics wanting to meet with me before everyone else so I don’t have to wait around forever. Blessing J

- Next week being my last week at work!

Oh there is more to come… just wait… Good things are happening!

Waiting

I’m learning that being patient is not easy. I want to be in fast forward mode and know what is going to happen… because I know something is going to happen. I just wish I knew what it was. But, instead, I get to wait. I get to do normal things on fairly normal days and just wait. If I knew what was going to happen tomorrow and the next day though, I guess it would make things boring, wouldn’t it? So I wait. I’m thinking that God wants to see what I will do while I wait for this something-that-I-don’t-know-about to happen. A big test you could say. Will I pass or fail? I think I will pass. I know that I will because I’ve made that decision… the decision to not just sit here and do nothing while I wait. But still, waiting is hard. Being patient is hard. It seems like to be patient you have to have this belief that everything will work out in the end… because if you didn’t believe that, you would try to do whatever you’re doing another way. So, patience takes trust. But, it’s always hard to trust and to let it all just go. To let the things that are making you worried and the things that are making you frustrated be swept away by your faith that something bigger is happening. It’s just a tough thing that is just so simple to do; to be patient.