You see, I have this friend who wants to go to Africa for a missions trip. He sent me a letter asking for money. That's normal. People do that when they are trying to raise money for trips like these. I didn't send him any money for different reasons. First off, I don't have any money. Not like... I spent money on 5 Starbucks over the past 3 days and now I'm broke. I have no money as in I bought gas and a burrito one day and now I'm broke. -.79 cents broke. But, this isn't about me being broke. Anyways, I didn't sent him money because I don't have any. But, I have other reasons too. I don't see this friend of mine too often. He's a nice guy, but we're not close. Once he asked me to go to a concert with him and his friends and he said that they were going to meet us there and they never came. I think it was on purpose. I get tricked into things. That wasn't the first time something like that has happened to me. But, yet again, this is about that. It's about the fact that whenever I see this friend of mine, he is drinking. He is drinking a lot. He spills things on people who end up throwing up later. He is with people who don't know Jesus and who could very well have a problem with alcohol. I know I'm not the judge of anything. I'm really not even saying that he is a bad person. We all do bad things, right? But, I'm not sure if I want to give money to someone for the purpose of spreading the love of Jesus who appears to be living in sin every time I see him. I sin. I do. I sin all the time. And, I work on it. I feel guilty when I sin. I strive toward righteousness. This could be the case for him too; maybe this is what he struggles with. He could be striving. It could be that I catch him in his weakness every time I'm with him. So, what would you do? If you had the money, would you give it to him? Would you say, "Right on, this is a perfect opportunity for you to show who Jesus is to people in Africa?" I don't know if it's what I want to say or if it is what I should be saying. If you can't show the love of God to alcoholics at home... how will you love people in Africa? Or is he showing God's love by getting drunk with non-believers? It's a fine line I think. It may seem like I'm attempting to scold him. I'm not. Instead, I'm questioning his lifestyle because I want him to go to Africa. I want him to represent Jesus. Is he doing this? He questions why he isn't get any funds to go and maybe other people are thinking exactly what I am. But, you know, I know nothing at all... and I say that with sincerity.
Monday, April 14, 2008
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